“It’s hard to put into words, isn’t it?” Gabriel gently offered, reading my energy, knowing I’d been intending to write about our story for over a week and was struggling to find the right threads to follow. I hadn’t said a word about what was moving inside me. He simply knew because he knows me (and parts of me) so well after all these years. I melted into soft tears, just letting him in. Letting us in. Even after all these years of loving each other, separating, returning,

So many people I’ve met on this path have been shaped by the promise of Sacred Union: the twin flame ideal, the destined counterpart, the love that would finally feel like arriving Home. These teachings speak to a longing that lives in many of us, the longing to be deeply met, deeply seen, and profoundly loved. Then another soul enters your life. And suddenly you find that the teachings are no longer just ideas that resonated. You find yourself in the middle of a bond (or the

I have been spending some time recently connecting a couple of men to their inner teenagers. This is an aspect that can be overshadowed by the Inner Child when it comes to inner work. This part of us has the remembrance, the magic, as well as the pain of the Inner Child yet was on the cusp of some very profound changes and life experiences that were hard to process and digest depending on their life’s circumstances. When we take time to ‘travel back’ to that time in our lives

There was a time when I proudly called myself a Seeker. It felt like belonging to a secret club that only the awakened had access to. Seeking felt sacred, alive, and very necessary in order to help me move out of the ordinary and the Matrix too. I was hungry for truth about the Divine, about myself as a soul, and about how to live my life more “spiritually”. I read books, so many books… attended workshops, explored different spiritual teachings, followed synchronicities, lon

In all of your awareness of your pain, has it been safe enough to deeply feel it, yet? To drop into the heart of the part that holds it as the biggest truth about them? To allow feeling to lead instead of spiritual or psychological theory, insight, or context? Parts of you still live in those memories of trauma, of the darkest times you've known. They still breathe that same air, feel those same feelings, and hold those same truths about themselves and the world. They still l

To a part of you, life may feel like it is coming at you on all sides. Relentless. Ongoing. Without rest. The daily grind and churn of responsibility and information. You may feel like a saturated sponge unable to hold it all. All the reactions. All the emotions. All the responding. You may wonder when it will all find peace, stability, and ease. There is a moment when it all becomes too much and you need to just BE. Be with the reactions. Be with the emotions. Responding to

For many years, I have longed to serve the healing, reconciliation, and union of the brotherhood of the heart. The Kings of the Heart or the Heartmen, I like to call us. I needed the time I had away from community to explore and sort out my own process to get to this place of clarity and desire. There were many quest-ions along the way that I had to answer for myself and then I needed relational experience to expand beyond them. Below are some of the quest-ions that may be as

Dearest protectors, Thank you for your fierce loyalty and your devotion to keeping the most precious parts of us safe. Thank you for the care you bring in maintaining the field each of our unique souls has created. Thank you for loving so deeply that you have tried to ensure nothing could ever harm our tender hearts. And yet, it feels like time to let something go. To soften the belief that lowering your walls means losing something. That allowing these precious parts to trul

There was once a time when I was the youngest person in a room of awakening souls. Parts of me wanted so badly to reach beyond who they were, to transcend “young-ness.” To show I was an old soul, someone worthy of an extraordinary life. A woman who could come into leadership of others in a New Earth kind of way. I was special in a special kind of way. That’s what parts of me wanted the world to know. When I reflect on the journey I’ve had, especially over the last 15 years, I

What if healing is not actually about getting rid of parts of yourself? This feels like one of the deepest distinctions in any healing process. So much healing work, even in conscious and spiritual spaces, is still subtly (or overtly) oriented around elimination. Release the wound. Clear the trauma. Purge the emotion. Transcend the ego. Heal the inner child. Become untriggered. And beneath much of it is often an unconscious question: “How do I stop being affected by this part

The first 24hrs or so after feeling a new part, or even going deeper with a more familiar one, are always pretty tender, sensitive, and alive for me. ❤️‍🩹 There’s love and joy to be connecting with them and yet, for them, they can feel quite naked. They’re sometimes an open sore, very raw, in need of air and of comfort, but also of deep feeling. They’re suddenly receiving what they’ve always needed but not necessarily realized they wanted more than anything else… to be met.

It is the Christmas season once again. It can feel relentless in its energies of giving and getting, buying and selling, family obligations, holiday parties, and traditional food, whatever any of that may mean to you or to parts of you. Memories of love and loss come forward, childhood joy and sorrow, and an ingrained sense of what this time of year has meant to parts of you, for better or worse. It is also a time when there is genuine joy and love abounding, when Christ Cons

Celebrating another anniversary today...it was nine years ago that I officially changed my name on FB to "Jelelle Awen" and began going by it in my service and sharing offerings as well here.

In this recent cycle of intense initiation offered through being in relationships, their deepenings or completions and digestion along the way......I’ve been feeling deeply into the terrain of spiritual distortion and authentic embodiment, where soul gifts can easily be hijacked by parts still operating from trauma, unmet needs, or subtle strategies for survival.

You are not a victim. You ARE a powerful creator. This can be hard to remember and difficult to embody. It can feel like to parts of you that you very much are a victim to circumstances and relationships and life situations and the 3D matrix and illnesses and your boss and your mate….and just about everything that you have experienced and are experiencing.

🌿 𝑭𝒐𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒑𝒂𝒓𝒕𝒔 𝒐𝒇 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒉𝒐 𝒘𝒐𝒓𝒌 𝒔𝒐 𝒉𝒂𝒓𝒅… The parts of you who toil and create, and rarely rest unless...

Yesterday I connected to my inner masculine who didn’t realize that he was feeling unacknowledged and not appreciated in the way he needed.

The ego is the part of us that creates and maintains a sense of separate self-identity, shaped by our experiences, beliefs, and survival

To the precious inner child, I honour you both in the pain you’ve had to endure and the light that you bring to my life

Being a teenager is like living your life with your heart on your sleeve and doing everything you can to protect that heart.