Many of us have become familiar with the concept of the Inner Child through emotional healing and spiritual awakening. We may recognize the younger parts of ourselves who carry abandonment wounds, unmet needs, fears, and longings from childhood. Yet there is another part of us who is often overlooked, even as they continue to influence our relationships, choices, emotional responses and reactivity, and sense of identity. This is our Inner Teenager.

There is a part of you that has been watching over you for most of your life, often without you even realizing it. This part has been paying attention to what might hurt you, who can be trusted, when it is safe to open your heart, and when you need to protect yourself. It has learned from your experiences, especially the painful ones, and developed ways of navigating the world that are intended to keep you from being hurt again.

There is so much I could say about the festival that Kasha and I went to recently and how much we felt before, during and after! It was one of those experiences that creates a turning point inside, a threshold crossing that unfolded in unexpected ways. Before we even left, there was a lot of anticipation, tension and pressure. It was our first festival together as vendors, and there was a vulnerability in putting ourselves and what we create out into the world and wondering w

𝑩𝒆𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒅, 𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒉𝒂𝒅𝒐𝒘𝒔 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒂 𝒄𝒂𝒏𝒅𝒍𝒆, 𝒏𝒐𝒕 𝒂 𝒔𝒘𝒐𝒓𝒅. For here there is nothing to fight, battle, or push against. Here, your soul’s grief and suffering can be laid bare, and your soul’s light and rebirth remembered. In this place, you will find treasures in all you’ve stumbled through. You will see more clearly the lights that have illuminated and held your path on the way here. Your shadows are not for fearing, but for exploring. F

What exactly is right and wrong? And why do some parts of us cling so strongly onto this idea that everything they choose, do or feel falls into one of these categories? And why does so much of that decision come from how others perceive it? I’ve been exploring some of these questions lately as a part of me has surfaced from a place of feeling some deep self consciousness and a self awareness that has caused such internal suffering in the past. This tracking and judging of ev

For this moment, there is no enemy. No perpetrator. No villain. Allow yourself this moment to breathe, to feel what that world could be like. If there are no battles to fight and win, no right and no wrong, no “awakened” ones awake and no “still asleep” ones to shake, what is left to stimulate you and keep you engaged in this world? If the battlegrounds suddenly turned to playgrounds, would you remember how to play? We have so much ache to bake in, so much advocacy to partake

I see so much ache for conscious romantic partnership, and how easily bitterness or settling can begin to take the place of continuing to dream. Being willing to wait. Being willing to keep your heart open. Being willing to say “no” when necessary, or “yes” when the heart truly calls for it. Soothing the parts of you who are recovering from love lost or, to their notion of it, never truly found. In my mate ache of the past, before Gabriel and I came back together, there we

“It’s hard to put into words, isn’t it?” Gabriel gently offered, reading my energy, knowing I’d been intending to write about our story for over a week and was struggling to find the right threads to follow. I hadn’t said a word about what was moving inside me. He simply knew because he knows me (and parts of me) so well after all these years. I melted into soft tears, just letting him in. Letting us in. Even after all these years of loving each other, separating, returning,

So many people I’ve met on this path have been shaped by the promise of Sacred Union: the twin flame ideal, the destined counterpart, the love that would finally feel like arriving Home. These teachings speak to a longing that lives in many of us, the longing to be deeply met, deeply seen, and profoundly loved. Then another soul enters your life. And suddenly you find that the teachings are no longer just ideas that resonated. You find yourself in the middle of a bond (or the

I have been spending some time recently connecting a couple of men to their inner teenagers. This is an aspect that can be overshadowed by the Inner Child when it comes to inner work. This part of us has the remembrance, the magic, as well as the pain of the Inner Child yet was on the cusp of some very profound changes and life experiences that were hard to process and digest depending on their life’s circumstances. When we take time to ‘travel back’ to that time in our lives

There was a time when I proudly called myself a Seeker. It felt like belonging to a secret club that only the awakened had access to. Seeking felt sacred, alive, and very necessary in order to help me move out of the ordinary and the Matrix too. I was hungry for truth about the Divine, about myself as a soul, and about how to live my life more “spiritually”. I read books, so many books… attended workshops, explored different spiritual teachings, followed synchronicities, lon

In all of your awareness of your pain, has it been safe enough to deeply feel it, yet? To drop into the heart of the part that holds it as the biggest truth about them? To allow feeling to lead instead of spiritual or psychological theory, insight, or context? Parts of you still live in those memories of trauma, of the darkest times you've known. They still breathe that same air, feel those same feelings, and hold those same truths about themselves and the world. They still l

To a part of you, life may feel like it is coming at you on all sides. Relentless. Ongoing. Without rest. The daily grind and churn of responsibility and information. You may feel like a saturated sponge unable to hold it all. All the reactions. All the emotions. All the responding. You may wonder when it will all find peace, stability, and ease. There is a moment when it all becomes too much and you need to just BE. Be with the reactions. Be with the emotions. Responding to

For many years, I have longed to serve the healing, reconciliation, and union of the brotherhood of the heart. The Kings of the Heart or the Heartmen, I like to call us. I needed the time I had away from community to explore and sort out my own process to get to this place of clarity and desire. There were many quest-ions along the way that I had to answer for myself and then I needed relational experience to expand beyond them. Below are some of the quest-ions that may be as

Dearest protectors, Thank you for your fierce loyalty and your devotion to keeping the most precious parts of us safe. Thank you for the care you bring in maintaining the field each of our unique souls has created. Thank you for loving so deeply that you have tried to ensure nothing could ever harm our tender hearts. And yet, it feels like time to let something go. To soften the belief that lowering your walls means losing something. That allowing these precious parts to trul

There was once a time when I was the youngest person in a room of awakening souls. Parts of me wanted so badly to reach beyond who they were, to transcend “young-ness.” To show I was an old soul, someone worthy of an extraordinary life. A woman who could come into leadership of others in a New Earth kind of way. I was special in a special kind of way. That’s what parts of me wanted the world to know. When I reflect on the journey I’ve had, especially over the last 15 years, I

What if healing is not actually about getting rid of parts of yourself? This feels like one of the deepest distinctions in any healing process. So much healing work, even in conscious and spiritual spaces, is still subtly (or overtly) oriented around elimination. Release the wound. Clear the trauma. Purge the emotion. Transcend the ego. Heal the inner child. Become untriggered. And beneath much of it is often an unconscious question: “How do I stop being affected by this part

The first 24hrs or so after feeling a new part, or even going deeper with a more familiar one, are always pretty tender, sensitive, and alive for me. ❤️‍🩹 There’s love and joy to be connecting with them and yet, for them, they can feel quite naked. They’re sometimes an open sore, very raw, in need of air and of comfort, but also of deep feeling. They’re suddenly receiving what they’ve always needed but not necessarily realized they wanted more than anything else… to be met.

It is the Christmas season once again. It can feel relentless in its energies of giving and getting, buying and selling, family obligations, holiday parties, and traditional food, whatever any of that may mean to you or to parts of you. Memories of love and loss come forward, childhood joy and sorrow, and an ingrained sense of what this time of year has meant to parts of you, for better or worse. It is also a time when there is genuine joy and love abounding, when Christ Cons

Celebrating another anniversary today...it was nine years ago that I officially changed my name on FB to "Jelelle Awen" and began going by it in my service and sharing offerings as well here.