The Sacred Union Journey, Part 2: Holding Love with Open Palms

“It’s hard to put into words, isn’t it?” Gabriel gently offered, reading my energy, knowing I’d been intending to write about our story for over a week and was struggling to find the right threads to follow.

I hadn’t said a word about what was moving inside me. He simply knew because he knows me (and parts of me) so well after all these years.

I melted into soft tears, just letting him in. Letting us in. 

Even after all these years of loving each other, separating, returning, growing, and changing, I still hold our Sacred Union with open palms and an open heart. His path, and even ours together, are not mine to control. And I no longer want them to be.

Parts of me no longer cling as they once did… trying desperately to hold onto an idealized picture of the bond, even as my devotion deepens every day.

I was 24 years old when Gabriel and I first came together.

Our relationship was beautiful, and it was rocky. We quickly discovered just how differently we moved through life and intimacy. There was a lot to feel into, let alone reconcile, very early on.

Yet, we rode the momentum of those early days with gusto and desire. Our bond was always held by a shared devotion to looking honestly at ourselves and staying devoted to the Divine within and between us. 

It also gave us permission to take space or even complete the relationship when that became the most loving thing either of us could do.

Over the past thirteen years we’ve surrendered our romance to seasons of friendship, no contact, and exploring other relationship possibilities. We needed to discover whether someone new could offer us something deeper and healthier than what we could offer each other.

At the end of the day, this entire journey has humbly brought me back to myself.

Like many people on this path, parts of me carried such a deep attachment to finding The One.

Those parts of me weren’t simply longing for Sacred Union or a Twin Flame, however. They weren’t okay being alone. And they didn’t know what it would mean if they were. 

Returning over and over again to the ground of Inner Sacred Union gradually changed what I was looking for outside myself.

I found myself bonding deeply with my own Inner Masculine, feeling his longing for intimacy with my Feminine beyond roles, martyrdom, protection, or power dynamics inside.

Alongside that, I began to recognize which parts of me tended to lead in romance, and which ones instinctively moved into defense or tried to control its outcome.

I began to settle so deeply inside, feeling into and healing the inner polarities as the love deepened within, that any trace of “mate ache” was no longer so energized or such a source of suffering for parts of me. Those parts now have each other in ways they never did before, and have discovered an intimacy with the Divine they once believed only another person could offer.

In this shift, more room has been made for Gabriel to be just as he is, for me to be just as I am. Imperfect. Still learning. Still healing. And also willing to surrender our romance to the Divine, to Love, to the service-of-love experience that being in love is meant to be. 

Today, Gabriel answers that old longing in beautiful ways, even in our moments of disconnect, or the less-than-dreamy places that every real relationship eventually confronts.

We’ve imperfectly stumbled into something that continues to fill me with awe, wonder, and reverence for the journey we’re on together. And I’m endlessly grateful that we continue choosing to meet each other with such honesty, grace, and love.

In Part 3, I’d love to share how we’ve come to understand the Counterpart Field within Divine Self Embodiment, along with the deeper purpose of Sacred Union that I now feel every conscious loving bond has the potential to awaken into.

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Kasha Rosa is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, Divine Self Embodiment Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.divineselfembodiment.com for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.