And now, a new wave rises, not in opposition but in expansion of these streams. It is the wave of emotional maturity and individuation, where the inner landscape of parts, wounds, and soul aspects becomes the ground of awakening.

The fires moving through Portugal and Spain right now don’t feel random, accidental or even 'wild'/natural to those of us awakening. Beyond the surface causes, they seem connected to deeper 3D/4D Matrix agendas that seek to fracture and destabilize the land here.

Being in the heart of intimacy with another soul or group of resonant souls where you truly feel seen and known, all parts of you, THIS is so scary to protective parts. I feel and have seen over and over through the years that nothing is scarier than truly being real, intimate, vulnerable, current, dropping strategies/presentations/masks with yourself, with others AND with the Divine.

Celebrating another anniversary today...it was nine years ago that I officially changed my name on FB to "Jelelle Awen" and began going by it in my service and sharing offerings as well here.

Four years ago, we arrived here in Portugal with very little sense of how it would be here or even much orientation to this country at all before then. We had received guidance in April, 2021 that it was time to move on

In this recent cycle of intense initiation offered through being in relationships, their deepenings or completions and digestion along the way......I’ve been feeling deeply into the terrain of spiritual distortion and authentic embodiment, where soul gifts can easily be hijacked by parts still operating from trauma, unmet needs, or subtle strategies for survival.

You are not a victim. You ARE a powerful creator. This can be hard to remember and difficult to embody. It can feel like to parts of you that you very much are a victim to circumstances and relationships and life situations and the 3D matrix and illnesses and your boss and your mate….and just about everything that you have experienced and are experiencing.

For the woman who fears her fire... Your rage is not a flaw. It is not a symptom of brokenness, a failure of your feminine, or something to be managed and tidied up.

To those who are remembering — and now choosing to stay: I see how many times you’ve tried to ascend by leaving your body, how many lifetimes you’ve fled the pain of density by going “up” instead of in.

You may have spent lifetimes hiding what you carry, quietly walking in circles, trying to forget how much you remember. Trying to stay small enough to belong.

Shortly after posting, a surge in the electrical grids here in Portugal, Spain, and parts of France caused a widespread collapse of power, internet, and external connection. For almost twelve hours, we were without the usual supports many have come to depend on.

I enter the portal of this day, Good Friday, crucifixion day, I can feel the multiple timelines and narratives that have branched off.....as so many narrative webs have been spun from its threads for different purposes and means.

I feel the sobriety of where we are journeying together today into the portal of the Last Supper and Yeshua’s grieving process in the Garden of Gethsemane.

Let in the love of the Sacred Feminine like it was the answer to all your prayers. Bask instead of balk. Don’t apologize. Don’t wait for others to be ready. Go overboard, you’ll come up for air and balance and grounding your way.  

Your truth will take you from one place to another. New territories will continue to emerge. Don’t seek a final resting place. Instead, let your resting place be in the flow and in the change. 

Oh, there are just some massive light body upgrades, deep cellular purging, soul remembrance, and heightened sensitivity going on

As you are in this Equinox/Eclipse passage, notice what/who you are drawn to connect with and be part of/invest your energies into.

The Equinox/Eclipse is opening a powerful threshold and liminal space, where the old dissolves and the new has yet to take full form.

The Equinox serves as a mirror, reflecting where we may still be holding distortions of polarity...be it in our relationships, service

The incarnation wound can be quite a deep one as it spans many lifetimes experiences of the difficulties of coming from such a high place