Inner sacred union is not a static realization. It is a living relationship between two evolving energies within you. Your inner masculine and your inner feminine do not arrive fully formed. They grow, respond, resist, transform, awaken, and soften over time. They learn each other the same way two human partners do… through intimacy, conflict, revelation, forgiveness, and devotion.

Heaven was never meant to be a distant realm, but something you could feel, breathe, and experience in your body. Your skin, your breath, your womb, your energy field and your entire being and ALL parts of you…are already encoded with the frequencies of Divine Heavenly Love. Your awakening journey this life invites you not to transcend your body, but fully inhabit it AS your Divine Feminine Venusian essence.

Now, in this timeline of Ascension, another frequency is arising. She is Venus. Venus is not a role, not a throne, not a program, not an archetype that must be performed. She IS feminine essence, radiance, magnetism in its purest form. 

The Dark Feminine is not a villain to be conquered, nor a force to be transcended. She is the fertile black soil of creation, the amniotic void from which all life emerges and to which all form eventually returns.

The Wise Woman is the golden petal of the feminine flower. She is the one who has gathered, metabolized, and alchemized every stage of her journey into embodied knowing. No longer seeking to prove, please, or perform, she lives from the calm authority of her own soul essence, rooted in her body and radiant in her truth.

The Mother lives in the feminine field as both an ache and archetype. She is the one we run toward for comfort and away from for our freedom. She births us and then becomes usually the first face of the Divine we meet or the first wound we must eventually forgive and reconcile.

Divine Mother’s call echoes through the lineage of every woman who has ever served the sacred. The Priestess hears this ringing within her cells. She is the woman who lives a life in devotion, holiness and tuned to the sacred.

We begin with the Inner Teenager who is initially anchored to 3D energies yet eventually transitions into the 4D soul-based Maiden, a tender and tumultuous expression that carries both the ache of lost innocence and the seed of untamed aliveness.

Beloved Inner Masculine, I see you. I have always seen you. I know the weight you have carried through lifetimes…the armor you forged to guard her softness, the judgments you wielded to keep her “safe,” the sacrifices you made to provide what you thought she could not find on her own.

The heroine’s journey is not only a story I tell, but a story I have lived. Its descent and ascent have been carved into my own body, my heart, my soul through veils falling, crowns stripped away, the underworld gates opening. These are not just symbols, but moments that broke me open and remade me.

To speak of being free to be She, we must first acknowledge the places where She has not felt free at all. The feminine carries wounds as old as time itself. Wounds that live not only in our personal stories but in our ancestral lines, our soul histories, and the collective feminine field.

Welcome to this portal of remembrance with me and the deepening of this journey together. You are entering this gateway now with a steady step and self-loving pace

As the inner feminine and masculine come into deeper relationship, something begins to shift in your field. The longing that once reached outward for completion begins turning inward for communion. The ache that once searched for a rescuer or a mirror begins rooting into your own heart.

Across the ancient world and in many timelines, the sacred marriage, or the ‘hieros gamos’ as it was called in Ancient Greece, served as a ritualized reminder that creation itself is born from the dance of opposites.

And now, a new wave rises, not in opposition but in expansion of these streams. It is the wave of emotional maturity and individuation, where the inner landscape of parts, wounds, and soul aspects becomes the ground of awakening.

The fires moving through Portugal and Spain right now don’t feel random, accidental or even 'wild'/natural to those of us awakening. Beyond the surface causes, they seem connected to deeper 3D/4D Matrix agendas that seek to fracture and destabilize the land here.

Being in the heart of intimacy with another soul or group of resonant souls where you truly feel seen and known, all parts of you, THIS is so scary to protective parts. I feel and have seen over and over through the years that nothing is scarier than truly being real, intimate, vulnerable, current, dropping strategies/presentations/masks with yourself, with others AND with the Divine.

Celebrating another anniversary today...it was nine years ago that I officially changed my name on FB to "Jelelle Awen" and began going by it in my service and sharing offerings as well here.

Four years ago, we arrived here in Portugal with very little sense of how it would be here or even much orientation to this country at all before then. We had received guidance in April, 2021 that it was time to move on

In this recent cycle of intense initiation offered through being in relationships, their deepenings or completions and digestion along the way......I’ve been feeling deeply into the terrain of spiritual distortion and authentic embodiment, where soul gifts can easily be hijacked by parts still operating from trauma, unmet needs, or subtle strategies for survival.