What the Light Left Behind: Bringing the Lost Parts Home

There was once a time when I was the youngest person in a room of awakening souls.

Parts of me wanted so badly to reach beyond who they were, to transcend “young-ness.” To show I was an old soul, someone worthy of an extraordinary life. A woman who could come into leadership of others in a New Earth kind of way.

I was special in a special kind of way. That’s what parts of me wanted the world to know.

When I reflect on the journey I’ve had, especially over the last 15 years, I feel how I chose the exact environment I needed for my deeper sense of worth and goodness to truly grow. I chose the imperfect garden of soul family, of mirrors for my heart and depth, of intimacy that has only ever served me, even in the mess and not just the bliss.

I chose to be a big and old soul among other big and old souls who could meet me there, in validation, care, devotion, and human realness.

And even with all the goodness of that, I’ve needed so many chapters that took me into “solo side quests.”

These came so I could continue catching up with myself.

The acceleration of my awakening, healing, and leadership journey created gaps between who I was becoming and who I had been. Parts of me still gripping old ways of being and relating needed to come forward and become “me” again for a time.

Several times, at that.

Ascension, healing, awakening, serving others, living as your soul is leading you to live… all of these can become a reaching beyond what parts of you feel truly ready for.

Eventually, they need to catch up.

This can look and feel like you’re going backwards. Moments of “not this again” arise as old feelings and reactions return, even after you thought you had healed them.

You realize that even though your soul did lead you somewhere beautiful, fulfilling, and real, there may still have been pain left unanswered. Something in you whose needs were buried or pushed aside now wants to be felt, seen, and reconciled.

It’s a humbling process.

Any conflation of “ascension” with leaving your humanity behind eventually stops holding. Then you’re left wondering: what happened to the bliss, the Kundalini, the sense of Oneness?

What happened, beloved soul, is that the time came to reclaim the aspects of you left in the dark by all that light.

To bring them home again becomes the path.

And it can feel like the ground beneath you has given way as you descend into this sacredly human journey.

I’ve known no greater awakening than that of the heart.

And this humbled soil is where it finally gets to seed, as your soul turns toward it now and chooses it as the way to truly integrate and embody all you’ve moved through.

Perhaps the point of it all was to guide you back to what makes you, you.

What makes you humanly spiritual, not just spiritually human.

Love,

Kasha

***

Kasha Rosa is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, Divine Self Embodiment Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.divineselfembodiment.com for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.