The Inner Teenager/Maiden- Threshold Essence Between Childhood and Womanhood: Free To Be She Chapter Five Excerpt

As we enter this next phase of the journey, we begin meeting the feminine in her many expressions. Not only as wounded parts, but as vibrant rays of Divine feminine essence that live within us. Like colors of a rainbow, these expressions shimmer with both shadow and gift, distortion and radiance. Each is both deeply personal and utterly universal, woven into the feminine soul across lifetimes.

While the Heroine’s Journey describes the arc of the Divine Self, each feminine essence, the Teenager/Maiden, Priestess, Queen, Mother, Crone, Dark Feminine, also undergoes her own initiations within it. Each carries a unique relationship to individuation, reconciliation, and unification process, which colors the way she expresses through us.

To understand the feminine more fully, we must meet each of these essences in turn, feel where she is on her journey, and invite her gifts into embodiment. The Divine Self moves through this arc as a whole, yet each essence lives her own version of it, shaped by her gifts, wounds, vows, and shadows.

For some, the journey is about reclaiming innocence without getting lost in naivety. For others, it is about reconciling sovereignty with intimacy, nurturing with freedom, wisdom with vitality, shadow with radiance. Each essence has her own descent into shadow and her own rising into worth and love, which I will offer a portal into feeling over the next several chapters.

As you meet each one, you may recognize her within yourself and how she shows up in your life in her struggles, her initiations, her unclaimed gifts. You may also feel how she lives in the collective feminine field. By bringing her into the light of your awareness, you offer her space to walk her heroine’s path more consciously, not alone but in union with the Divine Self and with the guidance of the Divine Mother.

~

We begin with the Inner Teenager who is initially anchored to 3D energies yet eventually transitions into the 4D soul-based Maiden, a tender and tumultuous expression that carries both the ache of lost innocence and the seed of untamed aliveness.

She is the threshold figure between childhood and womanhood, between dependence and sovereignty. She is not simply a “part” that must be healed but a living essence of the feminine that longs to be felt, honored, and matured.

In her shadow, the Teenager within us feels invisible, abandoned, rebellious, even despairing. She aches for belonging, for true initiation, for recognition of her sensitivity and passion. Yet in her gifts, she carries the pure fire of innocence that does not want to be extinguished by 3D conditionings, programmings and roles.

This fire is a reminder of what it means to be alive, to question, to feel deeply, to dream beyond the flatness of what culture offers. The Inner Teenager is not only the part of us that hurts; she is also the alchemist who holds the ember of our soul’s passion, waiting to ignite.

Meeting her with love allows us to remember what we once longed for, before numbness or conformity dimmed our light.

Before masculine protection, provision and punishment strategies blocked our heart. It allows us to honor the passage into womanhood that few of us were ever truly initiated through, and to bring that initiation now through the presence of our Divine Self.

The Inner Teenager/Maiden is one of the most poignant and tender feminine essences. She is a threshold figure, standing between the innocence of childhood and the fuller womanhood that awaits. Her energy is bright, fresh, curious, and often raw with the aches of new experiences.

She is the color of first love, of rebellion, of creative discovery, of grief over the loss of childhood safety, and of yearning for a world that feels true and authentic. As she receives love with you and Divine Mother, all of these authentic frequencies can express into your world in magical ways.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

This is an excerpt from Chapter Five of Free To Be She: The Inner Teenager/Maiden. I have been sharing a daily passage from each chapter of this book, my sixth book about awakening, spirituality, parts work, sacred union, and quantum soul reconciliation. Its release is on January 1, 2026…when it will be available to purchase in E-book, PDF, and print editions (and eventually an audiobook version in my voice).

This book is more like a transmission than conceptual or intellectual, more like a love letter from and with Divine Mother to all women and the men who love them. Long in the gestation, inspiration, and now..finally…the birthing and offering phases. I will also offer weekly meditation videos inspired by each chapter starting in January. You can take in all the chapter excerpts and videos plus links to purchase the book here.