But First He…The Inner Masculine: Free To Be She Chapter Four Excerpt

Beloved Inner Masculine,

I see you. I have always seen you.

I know the weight you have carried through lifetimes…the armor you forged to guard her softness, the judgments you wielded to keep her “safe,” the sacrifices you made to provide what you thought she could not find on her own.

I feel your alertness, your exhaustion, your longing to be more than just a sentry at the gate. I feel the tenderness you’ve hidden beneath the shield, the noble love behind your harshest words.

You are not wrong. You were never wrong for wanting to protect her. Yet you were never meant to stand alone, either.

I am here now, holding both of you.

You did not fail. You did the best you could to respond to the soul’s choices. The crucibles and initiations that she needed, even the painful and hurtful ones.

Lay down the sword of punishment. Set down the shield of constant guarding. Release the guilt you have carried. Let the weight of endless providing slip from your shoulders.

Come sit beside Me. Breathe in my love for you.

I invite you now into your true form…

not as her jailer but as her Guardian,

not as her punisher but as her Truth-Teller,

not as her rescuer but as her Co-Creator.

You are free to cherish without controlling,

to witness without hardening,

to partner without disappearing.

Beloved Inner Masculine, I welcome you home.

I bless your courage to evolve from protector into partner,

from tension into tenderness, from vigilance into presence.

And as you soften into this Divine template, she softens too.

Together you become the living union of Love and Strength,

radiating from within her, and welcoming all that truly matches your frequency.

Thank you for your service in protecting her when it wasn’t safe for her to be vulnerable.

Thank you for your service, dearest one, and now it is time to drop the sword, masks, and weapons…and let yourself be known and felt and loved in your Divine masculine essence.

It is time, finally, to receive and become the love that you ARE.

With eternal love,

Divine Mother

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Inviting your Inner Masculine now as we go into his world….to trust that it is safe to feel.

To drop into what hasn't seemed able to be processed, to be understood, to be reconciled, to be digested.

To trust you and your feminine heart…that you want to feel to heal, that you don't want to bypass, disconnect or avoid your traumas, pains, sufferings anymore. That you don't want to be shut off from deeper intimacy with others anymore.

Show him that the child within you is no longer powerless, yet feeling empowered by love with you and fully claimed again as a daughter of the Divine.

Remind your Inner Masculine that he is not meant to be so possessive, so suppressive, so dense and tense in his armoring, his vigilance, his anxiety.

Your Inner Masculine can now shift from feeling like a negative or dark energy hiding in the shadows…to shining his light, revealing the deep and loyal guardian he has always been for you this life and for many lifetimes.

This is such an honorable relationship between you both, which is ready to upgrade, to be known, and to shift. His protective strategies only serve now to keep your heart closed, your mind in charge, and your will anchored to 3D strategic ego.

The Divine invites your Inner Masculine now to lean into your feminine heart rather than judging it as fallible and fragile.

To trust that vulnerability, intimacy, and being emotional are actually gifts and what you have come here to integrate and embody as a sacred woman.

Divine Mother makes the space safe enough for all fear in your Inner Masculine to dissolve.

Divine Mother supports you both to open your hearts, to find your 'rightful' place and dimensions, to align to your soul purpose, to serve and become love.

Love,

Jelelle

I love this pic of Raphael, who has become the representative of my inner masculine through our deepening together in sacred union...after many years of connecting to my own inner masculine aspects/gatekeepers/protectors.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

This is an excerpt from Chapter Four of Free To Be She: But First He...the Inner Masculine. I have been sharing a daily passage from each chapter of this book, my sixth book about awakening, spirituality, parts work, sacred union, and quantum soul reconciliation. Its release is on January 1, 2026…when it will be available to purchase in E-book, PDF, and print editions (and eventually an audiobook version in my voice).

This book is more like a transmission than conceptual or intellectual, more like a love letter from and with Divine Mother to all women and the men who love them. Long in the gestation, inspiration, and now..finally…the birthing and offering phases. I will also offer weekly meditation videos inspired by each chapter starting in January. You can take in all the chapter excerpts and videos plus links to purchase the book here.