Over the years, Kasha and I have learned that sisterhood isn’t always soft or effortless, yet it’s also not always challenging and tense either. It can be one of the most revealing mirrors of both your shadow and your light and an opportunity to explore the full spectrum of what it means to be a woman. The two of us have known each other for over a decade, but the last four years here in Portugal have deepened something profound between us, a remembrance that feels like a leg

Your steps fall softly upon the dense forest floor. One foot in front of the other, steady and deliberate, ensuring your forward momentum. Light trickles through the canopy in golden ribbons while the air hums with memory. The ground is damp beneath your feet, and though you don’t know exactly where you are going, something in you keeps moving. Finally, you reach a river. The sound of the current grows louder with each step closer. There is a tightness in your chest that feel

This second part of this Dark Mother series takes us into the poetic truth of darkness, which is not punishment or absence of anything,...

As October opens, the veils begin to thin… and She approaches. This is the beginning of a devotional series I’ve written for Her, the...

Many of us carry a deep, often unconscious conditioning around intimacy and vulnerability. There’s a feeling that even the slightest...

Self protection is an inevitable part of living in this 3D reality. It allows the most precious parts of us to survive through both...

And now, a new wave rises, not in opposition but in expansion of these streams. It is the wave of emotional maturity and individuation, where the inner landscape of parts, wounds, and soul aspects becomes the ground of awakening.

𝑩𝒆𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒅, 𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒉𝒂𝒅𝒐𝒘𝒔 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒂 𝒄𝒂𝒏𝒅𝒍𝒆, 𝒏𝒐𝒕 𝒂 𝒔𝒘𝒐𝒓𝒅. For here there is nothing to fight,...

The fires moving through Portugal and Spain right now don’t feel random, accidental or even 'wild'/natural to those of us awakening. Beyond the surface causes, they seem connected to deeper 3D/4D Matrix agendas that seek to fracture and destabilize the land here.

Being in the heart of intimacy with another soul or group of resonant souls where you truly feel seen and known, all parts of you, THIS is so scary to protective parts. I feel and have seen over and over through the years that nothing is scarier than truly being real, intimate, vulnerable, current, dropping strategies/presentations/masks with yourself, with others AND with the Divine.

Celebrating another anniversary today...it was nine years ago that I officially changed my name on FB to "Jelelle Awen" and began going by it in my service and sharing offerings as well here.

Four years ago, we arrived here in Portugal with very little sense of how it would be here or even much orientation to this country at all before then. We had received guidance in April, 2021 that it was time to move on

Steady and warm, my sweet sacred masculine cat Oren lay in my lap this morning as I entered into Divine Father’s field. It’s like he knew...

In this recent cycle of intense initiation offered through being in relationships, their deepenings or completions and digestion along the way......I’ve been feeling deeply into the terrain of spiritual distortion and authentic embodiment, where soul gifts can easily be hijacked by parts still operating from trauma, unmet needs, or subtle strategies for survival.

You are not a victim. You ARE a powerful creator. This can be hard to remember and difficult to embody. It can feel like to parts of you that you very much are a victim to circumstances and relationships and life situations and the 3D matrix and illnesses and your boss and your mate….and just about everything that you have experienced and are experiencing.

For the woman who fears her fire... Your rage is not a flaw. It is not a symptom of brokenness, a failure of your feminine, or something to be managed and tidied up.

To those who are remembering — and now choosing to stay: I see how many times you’ve tried to ascend by leaving your body, how many lifetimes you’ve fled the pain of density by going “up” instead of in.

🌿 𝑭𝒐𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒑𝒂𝒓𝒕𝒔 𝒐𝒇 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒉𝒐 𝒘𝒐𝒓𝒌 𝒔𝒐 𝒉𝒂𝒓𝒅… The parts of you who toil and create, and rarely rest unless...

Beltane marks a sacred midpoint in the wheel of the year — a time when sensuality, aliveness, and the dance between the Divine Feminine...

You may have spent lifetimes hiding what you carry, quietly walking in circles, trying to forget how much you remember. Trying to stay small enough to belong.