From Victim to Creator: Remembering & Reconciling the Sacred Story of Your Soul

You are not a victim. You ARE a powerful creator.

This can be hard to remember and difficult to embody. It can feel like to parts of you that you very much are a victim to circumstances and relationships and life situations and the 3D matrix and illnesses and your boss and your mate….and just about everything that you have experienced and are experiencing.

It may feel so real, so raw, to parts of you that you have been done to—by life, by others, by circumstances beyond your control. And in many ways, these parts are right to feel what they feel. Because something was lost, something was taken…or never given at all.

When parts of you feel powerless or victimized, they are not wrong for feeling so. They are often young and innocent, often formed in moments into shame and unworthiness from undigested reactions to trauma and shock. Or they are protective and vigilant, witnessing these traumatizing moments and feeling powerless to prevent them. Your Inner Child, your Inner Teenager, your Inner Protector, your Inner Punisher....they all carry the imprints of these moments.

But they also carry something else: readiness. To be seen. To be felt. To be held in a love that doesn't bypass their pain, but meets it with compassion.

As your soul awakens and reconciles, it remembers how you chose all of the circumstances, situations, and relationships that you experience in this life in order to grow and transform.

Your soul remembers that you chose to line it all up for yourself to play out in this 3D Earth transitioning to 4D Bliss Mess to 5D Gaia experiment…..this very short life span, to ‘power pack it’ with growth opportunities because it offered so much chance to learn.

Your soul remembers that none of the people in your life are ‘against you’ but have actually agreed to be with you in this life, playing certain roles for you (even the 'bad guy ones') and you for them, in order to heal and move patterns in your Metasoul and soul family monad group and ultimately FOR the Divine.

When you bring your soul perspective and higher heart Divine Self holding to these parts, not to correct or fix them...but to walk with them, to feel them.....you begin the great remembering.

Not just thinking differently, but BEing differently. Living from a deeper well of trust.

If your life has felt and been especially painful, intense, or initiatory—that is not a sign of failure. It is a sign that you are a big soul and an advanced, ancient soul. With a mission and soul purpose to feel, heal, and transmute not only your personal pain, but the wounding of entire timelines, ancestral lines, soul families, and Metasoul aspects.

You chose to immerse yourself in density not to stay lost, but to find yourself again as light.

You are here most likely to merge your healing emotional body with a reconciling and remembering soul field.

To show the way as Sacred Humanity arises.

This is no small task—and you do not do it alone.

Some of us came here to seed this knowing too.

To live the map, the spiral, the climb—and to reach a hand back for others, not from the mountaintop of ego, but from the field of remembered grace.

And we are now reuniting and finding each other as soul family coming together.

If you as a Divine Self energy can hold this soul perspective with the parts of you that feel like a victim and offer it to them when they are feeling hopeless and powerless, it can lead to much healing and sense of empowerment.

Telling Your Life Story As A Sacred Scroll

When you tell the story of your life, do you hold it with reverence and the sense that you chose it all? Or do parts of you tell it with despair, depression, powerlessness and rage? Do you blame and shame others or yourself in your ‘story’ as you tell it? Do you loop on the same stories over and over again with the same charged energy tones each time you share it?

And if the story is still tinged with despair or rage or shame, that is not wrong. That is simply where a part of you still waits to be felt. Bring them your presence, your patience, your power. And they will soften.

You can unstick them with self love and compassion by using these moment as a portal of healing and discovering….and by offering this higher soul perspective too. This is not just ‘thinking differently’ about what you have experienced…it is BEing different, coming from a trust place and these soul frequencies are able to transmute the victim places into empowered places. It really does work this way, in my experience over the years.

Tell your life story like a sacred scroll: Not as a tragedy, but as a tapestry...woven from soul choices, sacred contracts, karmic echoes, and Divine orchestration.

More Moments Of Remembering

All that is in your life and that you experience of it is there because you have allowed it to be, because you have chosen for it to be. Feeling this then leads to the question: “Do I want what is currently in my experience of life to continue and why or why not?”

And also, “WHY have I chosen this? What is it telling me or teaching me? What parts of me are stuck in suffering loops here and choosing that?” These are powerful and empowering questions because you can feel the 'why' at the deeper level (at the parts/soul aspect level is what I would recommend) and then make choices of action based on the answers that you discover.

Staying victim can be used by parts of you to keep you safe, to keep life safe, to keep you from risking or growing beyond where they feel you can go. It can keep you entangled in toxic relationships and karmic cycles/feedback suffering loops that no longer serve your soul and are more scared unions than sacred ones.

It can block actual self love and compassion from flowing to the parts of you that really need it (and all of them need it actually!) It can block connection with Divine Source where you can feel and let in and trust that the Divine (and your guides) are with you in this life experiment and support you with love in all moments.

You are not trapped. You are not broken. You are not behind.

You are exactly where your soul chose to be—for your growth, for your becoming, for your return to the love you have always been.

You are a fractal of Divine Source. A God or Goddess, awakening in sacred human form.

And the moment you remember this, so do all the parts of you that had temporarily forgotten.

With love, Jelelle Awen

This is the ground we walk together in Divine Self Embodiment.... Rather than rejecting the victim tones, parts and energies, we honor them, hold them, validate them and help them transmute with love—until the frequency shifts, and a deeper truth comes of your remembered Divinity and theirs IN your body! Info about 1:1 sessions, group events, and more here on our website.