This writing about the Inner Child is from Jelelle's Free To Be 5D book, which you can purchase in PDF, e-book, print and audio versions with links here.
Your Inner Child
To the little one inside,
The lost one that wants to be found,
The sad one that wants to be happy,
The hurt one that wants to forgive,
The earth bound one that wants to be in the stars,
The sensitive one that feels everyone and everything around them,
The overwhelmed one surrounded by energies they don’t understand,
The merging one that doesn’t understand boundaries,
The receptive one that accepts whatever truth is offered to them.
To this precious one inside of you....
You are feeling their fears, easing their anxieties, and becoming a reassuring presence that
they’ve always wanted.
You are shining the light on all the monsters under the bed to reveal the friends waiting there in
the shadows.
You are offering the softest embraces, the kindest words, and the deepest unconditional love.
To the orphan inside of you...
You are becoming a healthy, consistent, and supportive parent.
You are healing from the wounded mother/father energies that were passed down to you through
your family line.
You are becoming the comforting authority that they most deserve and desire.
You are offering a home inside of your own heart where they can finally feel claimed.
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Your Inner Child initially holds the energy of your wounded daughter or son, the part most
impacted by your relationship with your parents and your childhood wounding. It often holds the
wounded tones of hurt, shame, and anxiety. However, your Inner Child is not just the woundedness, shyness, hurt, and shame that they so often feel. These are the emotional energies this part of you has experienced in 3D life from traumatic experiences that didn’t get digested when they needed to be; in the moment that the trauma occurred. So, the energy of trauma gets stuck, like a clogged drain, stuck in the ‘moments’ they were wounded. If there had been an open-hearted/open-souled caregiver to digest the trauma, your Inner Child would remain in much higher and natural frequencies of love, authentic soul essence, and innocence.
Instead, it is so often our caregivers who cause the trauma and who repeat the abuse that they
experienced too with their caregivers. They are innocent in this (in a way) as they don’t know
any other way to be yet, especially if their caregivers/parents have not awakened their soul
frequencies to realize the patterns and choices they have lived in. It is a cycle of undigested
trauma passed down like a legacy of woundedness through generational birth family lines that
often has very little consciousness around the harm and abuse that is occurring.
Your Inner Child absorbed these wounded frequencies like a sponge. In their heart and soul
porosity, they could only become, to some degree, these pains and aches. Yet, there is an essence
there of love and light that is preserved and stored within your Inner Child due to the dutiful
work of your Inner Protector and other parts that form to guard/protect and serve through the 3D journey and into 4D as you awaken.
During sessions, I have so often been reminded of the actual, magical essence potential of the
Inner Child. For example, in a recent session, instead of finding a hurt and wounded energy, my
Facilitant discovered her Inner Child as a magical BEing of alchemy able to transmute the ‘dark
corners’ of her essence into love again. Her Inner Child had experienced some healing of
traumas through previous emotional work and was ready to reveal herself as the magic that she
is. She just needed a bridge to her energy in order to show her true colors again.
Also, we were connecting consciously with her Inner Protector in the session, who came along with us on this journey to connect with the Inner Child. This allowed the Protector to be negotiated with and not block the love from coming through, which can often happen in ‘Inner Child work’ if the Protector is not consciously recognized and acknowledged.
Sometimes, the Protector can put the energy of the Inner Child ‘up front’ in life and use their
innocence as a defense to deflect from deeper revelation of strategies and traumas. People who
struggle to grow up and seem overly childlike as adults or have more emotional immaturity may
have this dynamic at play. The Inner Child itself becomes a form of defense and protection,
which is challenging because they are not as equipped to handle the intense energies of 3D life.
The Protector’s filter of the Inner Child can also be that they need fierce guarding and that they
are helpless. This projection of helplessness onto the Inner Child keeps them in a place of feeling
that way, often reinforced by parental energies that belittled and abused them. Until you can
approach them as an open-hearted adult that allows separation to occur between the Protector
and the Inner Child, this dynamic of overprotection through ‘projected helplessness’ continues
unconsciously within you. This can manifest in a lack of self-confidence, inability to find your
voice in expression, difficulty advocating for your truth, feelings of unworthiness, acute self-
consciousness, disconnection from your joy, and over all flat and heavy feelings about life.
Much of the suffering loops that occur through inner punishment/judgement and the
corresponding shame reaction are unhealed frequencies between the Protector (and Inner
Punisher) and the Inner Child. The Protector/Punisher combination provides thoughts and
feelings that are judgemental, limiting, and often harsh in order to keep the Inner Child in
repeated places of shame and unworthiness.
This is not done out of cruelty, yet rather out of a desire to keep the Inner Child ‘safe’ as the shame contracts them back into a safe place inside of the Protector’s care again. This is a learned response to parents/caregivers who could be judgmental or unsupportive. It becomes an internalized representation of that parental relationship, a necessity in order to lessen the harm and hurt caused by it.
As the Inner Child transmutes from 3D wounded sad/shame/hurt frequencies into 4D magical
joy/alchemy, your Star Seed Child, and eventually your 5D Crystal Child frequencies arise, as
we love and hold space for them. It is these Crystal Divine Child frequencies that actually power our Merkabahs or light body vehicles for multidimensional travel. The Crystal Divine Child frequencies in us allow for the necessary fuel of curiosity and reverence to power our Merkabahs into the multidimensional realms that we most need to go to in order to reactivate our DNA, connect to our Galactic Family, and heal/integrate our soul fragments in other lifetimes.
Connecting with your Inner Child links very directly with your Ascension and Awakening
process. It is a key aspect of the process. Trying to avoid or divert or bypass from healing the
Inner Child doesn’t seem to work very well and shows up in other ways, such as abuse patterns
in relationships, ongoing suffering, body disease/illness, caps/blocks in Ascension, etc.
As your Inner Child heals, it becomes the frequencies of magical experiences, whimsy, fun-
lovingness, joyfulness, being in the moment, connection with animals and nature, and
imaginative play. Your Inner Child is a crucial energy to come along with you on your journey.
Inviting them into your heart space, you open up to discover the rich and vast rewards of this
integration. There are so many gifts freed up as you integrate these energies back into your being
again and realize that all of what you experienced as a child (no matter how painful or traumatic)
can actually be transmuted back into love again if you respond to it with love.
Meditation to connect with your Inner Child:
Meet Your Inner Child w/Raphael & Jelelle Awen -
Journaling process to connect with your Inner Child:
• Write a letter to your Inner Child from your Divine Self voice and energy, asking them for a
name you can call them by. After completing the meditation and/or after feeling them in a
session with your Facilitator, connect to the energy of your Inner Child that comes
forward. Have this part respond back to you with whatever they would like to say.
Next, have your Inner Child answer these interview questions:
• Hello, may I ask you these questions to get to know you?
• (Wait for a response. If yes, proceed)
• What does the world you live in look and feel like?
• How old are you?
• What scene from childhood do you most relate to?
• What scene from childhood causes the most pain for you?
• What scene from childhood brings up the most joy for you?
• What part of the body do you relate to?
• How do you feel about my mother?
• How do you feel about my father?
• How do you feel about the relationship between my parents?
• How do you feel about my current or more recent romantic partner?
• What is your fantasy world like?
• Who do you like the most in your life and why?
• Who do you like the least in your life and why?
• What is your relationship like with my Inner Protector?
• What is your relationship like with my Inner Punisher?
• What is your relationship like with my Inner Mother/Father?
• What is your relationship like with my Inner Teenager?
• What is your favorite food?
• What is your favorite kind of music/song and why?
• What is your favorite activity?
• What are you afraid of?
• What is your biggest desire?
• What is your biggest despair over?
• How do you feel about God/The Divine?
• How do you feel about Mother Mary/Divine Mother?
• When you are feeling bad, how do you cope with it?
• When you are feeling scared, what makes you feel safer?
• What do you do when you feel lonely?
• Is there a particular stuffed animal that I could get for you that would allow us to connect
more?
• How do you feel about talking and journaling with me again?
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