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Your Inner Teenager: Bridge to Initiation Into Your Emotional Depth and Soul Gift Expression(With Journal Questions)

This writing about the Inner Teenager is from Jelelle's Free To Be 5D book, which you can purchase in PDF, e-book, print and audio versions with links here.

Your Inner Teenager

Your Inner Teenager is the part of you representing the phase and stage after childhood and

before adulthood, usually between 11 and 18 years old, although that can vary. This is a very

important period of life as it is very often when awakening is happening on a Metasoul level with

timelines starting to bleed-through into your reality. In many timelines, the teenager phase of life

is honored as a sacred time of initiation. It is recognized in these other lifetimes that you are in,

as the beginning stages of becoming/identifying your soul gift expressions and purpose. In many

timelines, the community provided support for the teenager to mature into that expression.

However, in our 3D modern era, for teenagers, there isn’t usually initiation, honoring, and

training in how to follow their soul’s purpose or any recognition of it. Instead, 3D culture

overlooks teenagers and often judges them harshly. Instead of receiving initiation in all areas of

life around relationships, sexuality, spirituality, and passion purpose, your Inner Teenager

received, most likely, invalidation in all these areas. Deep 3D-based conditioning just serves to

feed and amplify growing fears, dualities, insecurities, and polarizations inside of them.

The Inner Teenager is often hanging out in the sanctuary of their teenage bedroom and can be

connected with there. Your Inner Teenager is often stuck there with strong feelings of angst,

depression, even suicidal feelings of not wanting to be on this planet and in their birth families

anymore. Instead of a healthy phase of individuating from birth family, there is often push-pull,

over attachment, and other unhealthy dynamics experienced by our inner teens. They are hiding

from the family dynamics, yet there can be both longing for connection and pushing away from

the family vibe at the same time. So often the teenager is torn between the necessity of bonding

with their birth family for their very survival and a growing sense of dissonance and lack of


There seem to be two kinds of ways that this expresses in an Inner Teenager during this very

challenging phase of life. Either as overt rebellion and acting out in behaviors that are not

approved of; or in nearly complete-seeming acceptance and conformity to the family. In the case

of rebellion, more inner truth and empowerment is able to be expressed, even if it isn’t always in

healthy ways. When there has been conformity, a conforming 3D Self (almost like a robot self) is

created to fit in and the rebellious and angry part of the Inner Teenager is usually hidden away in

the shadows.

I have discovered that the Inner Teenager is the part of us that is often responsible for our social

interface in life, even as adults. They are stuck in the trauma they experienced in social

interactions and haven’t been able to mature beyond it until we connect with them and help them

heal. It is often the Inner Teenager’s energy that is leading in romantic relationships, which is

why so many of them can be dysfunctional and not as mature in transaction. This isn’t the fault

of our Inner Teenager yet rather a reflection of where they haven’t yet matured in their

expression of relationality with others.

So much intense rage, depression, and anxiety can be bleeding through from other

lifetimes/timelines into your Inner Teenager’s reality. Your soul is starting to awaken and there

is more coming through. The veil may be thinner during this time and there is not as much

protection being provided by the Inner Protector to keep it out. Later on in adulthood, the Inner

Protector and the Gatekeeper are able to create a stronger veil around your 3D Self using layers

of densities from undigested traumas.

The Inner Teenager is being flooded with frequencies that they cannot understand or digest,

which are just amplified by difficulties in relationships, in school, with their body image, etc.

Feelings of being the ‘black sheep’, not fitting in, not belonging, and being abandoned are

increasing during this time as well as they wake up to the dissonance in their soul to 3D


Galactic frequencies can be intensified during this teenage phase as well, with ‘visits’ often

happening with Star Family without conscious awareness. Many Star Seeds serve as

Ambassadors to help other younger Star Seeds during visits with Star Family. I experienced a

profound process with my Inner Teenager Jill (a shortened version of my birth name, Jillian)

when I remembered that she had served in this Galactic Ambassador capacity when I was a

teenager. She was very depressed and often suicidal, feeling like her parents were cruel and that

she didn’t belong to them. As I connected with her, we remembered how we had served on the

light ships to help the younger children who were scared of being there and missing their birth

families. It was stunning to feel how much unworthiness my Inner Teenager felt to fit into 3D

life and yet she was actually quite important in the multidimensional reality of 4D!

This disconnect from our Inner Teenager’s bigness and inability to express it in 3D often leads to

suicidal feelings, sometimes consciously not wanting to be on this planet any longer and to die

and leave it. As more people are awakening consciously sooner in these times, they are able to

download more sense of their soul’s purpose as separate from their 3D conditioning. The newer

generations are rejecting more of the 3D template of what is important in life and focusing on

their own health and wellbeing and awakening in increasing numbers.

Connecting with your Inner Teenager in a conscious way allows them to receive the initiations

and individuation that they most need in order to mature in all areas of life. By receiving a bridge

to you in your current maturity, they are able to receive a template for who they will become and

what their potential is. Like a visit with their ‘future self’ in the form of a loving mentor, they

finally receive what they have most been needing and longing for.

Going into the world of our Inner Teenager brings us closer to the passion, imagination, and

creativity we had to set aside for various reasons as we became adults. It is about feeling the loss

of innocence that led us to so much serious, repressed, and conforming expression. They are the

bridge from our youth to our maturity. They are truly seers of new worlds. Healing our Inner

Teenager brings a new vision of life that has technicolor rad-ness and infinite vision. It brings a

joy and lightness that seeks to learn and have fun at the same time. We offer 1:1 Divine Self Embodiment sessions to provide a bridge to the inner teenager, opening up healing frequencies of reparenting within you and initiations with your soul.

Meditation to connect with your Inner Teenager:

Meet Your Inner Teenager w/Raphael & Jelelle Awen -

Journaling process to connect with your Inner Teenager:

  • Write a letter to your Inner Teenager from your Divine Self/Compassionate Witness Self and energy, asking them for a name you can call them by. After completing the meditation and/or after feeling them in a session with your Facilitator, connect to the energy of your Inner Teenager that comes forward. Have this part respond back to you in a response letter with whatever they would like to say.

Then, ask your Inner Teenager to answer these interview questions:


  • Hello, may I ask you these questions to get to know you? 

  • (Wait for a response. If yes, proceed)

  • What does the world you live in look and feel like?

  • How old are you?

  • What scene from teenagehood do you most relate to?

  • What scene from teenagehood causes the most pain for you?

  • What scene from teenagehood brings up the most joy for you?

  • What part of the body do you relate to?

  • How do you feel about your mother?

  • How do you feel about your father?

  • How do you feel about the relationship between your parents?

  • How do you feel about your current or more recent romantic partner, or one from the past?

  • What is your fantasy romance like? 

  • How do you feel about sex and your sexuality?

  • Who do you like the most in your life and why?

  • Who do you like the least in your life and why?

  • What is your relationship like with my Inner Protector?

  • What is your relationship like with my Inner Punisher?

  • What is your relationship like with my Inner Mother?

  • What is your relationship like with my Inner Father? 

  • What is your favorite food?

  • What is your favorite kind of music/song and why?

  • What is your favorite activity?

  • What are you afraid of?

  • What is your biggest desire?

  • What is your biggest despair over?

  • How do you feel about God/The Divine?

  • When you are feeling bad, how do you cope with it?

  • When you are feeling scared, what makes you feel safer?

  • What do you do when you feel lonely?

  • How do you feel about talking and journaling with me again?


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