Feeling the Divine as Beloved today through Anders, my inner masculine… through the brush of his whiskers against my forehead as he plants a sweet kiss there, through the feeling of being in his arms as he holds me and allows space for me to cry, which is something I needed space for this morning.
I feel the Beloved come in through the window of sadness in my feminine heart, wanting to be received and TO receive… love, care, compassion, passion, realness, and reverence.
I also equally feel the Beloved through the love of my closest companions on this journey... my beloved soul family in the flesh... and the ongoing journey of feeling the openings between us in nourishing frequencies of resonance and alignment.
I feel the Beloved apologizing to aspects of me for what they’ve experienced and what so many women have experienced… and equally how much the Beloved wishes to energize this for men too, to help them heal what they’ve experienced with women as this polarity dance of mirrors-at-sometimes-awkward-angles flows on.
I feel how much I long to feel the Beloved and I making love through the being of a masculine mate who wants to experience the same through me.
It would be a love making that transcends body-based pleasure and enters the realm of soul-to-soul recognition, respect, awe, wonder, and alchemy of love. It would be a feeling of being loved for ALL that I am and have been in this consciousness in this lifetime and in so many others. And it would be the same for him, too.
I’ve come to know what it can feel like when the Divine is allowed into your heart, soul, and body. I know this from lifetimes of experiencing this, often in private, seldom out in the open where it could be invalidated, or worse… persecuted.
I feel the Divine caressing my heart space as ‘Kasha’ and yet so far beyond ‘Kasha’ too.
I feel the Divine breathing life into my being, opening me up to even more trust in the ebbs and flows of life.
I feel in all of this a sincere missing of ‘him’ - the mate that is yet to come - and yet, I also feel inspired patience because perhaps I’m not fully ready yet and neither is he, so the journey of Now should be treasured and relished in. It’s a temporary state of singleness and not the completion of my personal love story, inside or out.
And truthfully, with the Divine Beloved, I never really feel ‘single’. I’m not solitary and cast aside. And I’m certainly NOT rejected.
I’m not separate from ‘him’ - just doing the work to meet up with him in the Higher Heart field where we will be reunited when it’s time and where we can already visit and feel each other energetically.
The Beloved has imprinted me with the love I deserve, which is a true reflection of my worth, and it’s taken many years to really let that in. It’s taken effort to move the barriers enough to feel it and let the truth of this live in me.
Each wayward experience I’ve had, has led me here.
Each beautiful opening I’ve had with another, has also led me here.
Thank you, Beloved Divine, for your relentless pursuit of me. My heart is stronger from your challenges and hurdles, your reflections that have shown me what I’ve allowed because of a missing self-worth and love. My soul is healing lifetimes of angst, of (necessary) defenses, of doubt, because of your love always knocking at my door, reminding me to look within with compassion and determination.
I am letting you in now more than ever before. And I look forward to more of the gifts you wish to bring… in the form of your mirrors and your desires for me and with me too.
I LOVE you…
Love,
Kasha
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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, Divine Self Embodiment Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.divineselfembodiment.com for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.
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