Imbolc and the Ache of Becoming

by Kasha Rosa

Oh, these threshold times…

Imbolc, every year, carries significance for me and my soul. It holds me through a time of shifting foundations in my heart and in my life. It signals an entrance into a kind of birth canal, welcoming me to make space for all there is to feel as the contractions intensify in moments and soften in others.

There is usually some doorway to grief alive for me at this time of year. Lately, it has been the loss of a meaningful relationship in my field, alongside a deeper digestion of what was lost and found in the year leading up to now.

My soul has also been moving through some tender, achey places around shame themes, with an uptick in intensity recently. These peak moments of triggering, of old memories surfacing even from many years ago, all seem to point toward the same thing, a sense of soul aspects from other lifetimes, as well as parts of me from this lifetime, feeling guilty or ashamed for having misstepped, dropped the proverbial ball, or not asked the right questions at the right time in order to avoid an upset of some kind.

The vigilance of my heart and soul, the feeling of having to prove my integrity, my goodness, my inner solidity, is not actually created by anything on the outside. It is mirrored there, sometimes painfully, and that is where the signal lands that points me back inward. But the only way to heal it is to feel it and to own it as an inner dynamic, one that circumstances and relationships have reflected to me again and again.

This threshold time, then, is an invitation to feel this on all the levels I need to. To return to that nestled-in sense of goodness inside. To help all parts of me trust it, and all soul aspects accept it, even if in other lifetimes there was persecution or the threat of persecution on all sides, leaving parts of me doubting themselves at the root and tender to even the subtlest edge of criticism, whether intended or not.

What feels interesting to me on a collective level is this: if so many of us are still carrying a need to fight for our own sense of goodness and rightness, for our integrity and our truth, then perhaps that is a core ingredient in the mess we see playing out around us.

And yet, that realization also carries purpose. If there were no mirror, there would be no mess to finally notice. If there were no mess to notice, there would be no need to clean anything up inside. And if there were no need to tend what has been hidden in the shadows, shoved under beds, swept under rugs, pushed into dark corners of the closet, then the depth and richness of our individual and collective growth would not be nearly as powerful.

Our evolution depends on these threshold times. Here lies the opportunity to awaken, not only to what is no longer working on the outside, but to what has kept it going within our own consciousness.

Welcome to this potent time of threshold crossing, beloved. Wherever you are, whoever you have been, and whoever you are becoming, your light and love are needed to illuminate, water, and tend the seeds stirring in that sometimes messy soul soil within.

Love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rosa is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, Divine Self Embodiment Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.divineselfembodiment.com for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.